La La’s Story

They call me La La. Basically I lived here all my life, but we moved around a lot in Chesapeake. I had like a stable home, but not really cause my mom wasn’t always there when I was younger. I always had babysitters til my older sisters moved back in. I was basically raised by them. I don’t hang around females cause females cause a lot of drama and confusion. So I surround myself with guys. I figure I won’t have to worry about things getting out. We just go to movies and Greenbrier Mall and stuff like that. Like I said, my sisters raised me. My mom was an alcoholic.

My dad, I mean my sperm donor, was always in jail so I never really spent much time with him. But when I visited him or talk to him on the phone he would put me down saying stuff like “I don’t want a fat daughter” It really brought down my self esteem. I didn’t know too much about HIV but my cousin told me that the reason we go to Sutter House is that someone in our family has it. And then one day my mom told me she was positive. Later I found myself having unprotected sex with people I shouldn’t even be having sex with. I didn’t care about protection until I got Chlamydia. To this day I don’t know who gave it to me. There is nothing worst than walking in the doctors office to find out you have chlamydia, gonorrhea or the next time it might be AIDS. My life was going nowhere I was going down hill. I thought maybe if I join this teen group it would change my life around for the better. And it did a lot more… Things changed when I cut off all those guys and we moved again.

I didn’t sleep around but I still had a rep of being a jump because of what I did back when I was 13. That was four or five years ago, and they still know me as that. That’s when I had realized that I can’t keep sleeping with random people. That’s how I got this repetition. Being in a group like this, I felt like a hypocrite, and I hate hypocrites. I can’t be trying to tell people you can’t do this you cant do that if I am doing it myself! So now as far as the un safe sex thing I’ve had like a couple of slip ups but as far as the multiple partners I’ve had no slip ups. If you are having that problem you need to take a step back and look at yourself, My little brother looks up to me now. That inspires me. I plan to not mess up and even if I do mess up im going to keep trying. Everyone rooting for me, I can’t let them down.